Mary and Tonya....Our 2nd chance at life...starting all over!!

Ok, so maybe I overestimated myself thinking I could do both at once!!  I am doing it, but I feel like I am starving to death!  I was not horrible yesterday or today but did not keep a food journal, and I am sure I exceeded my points for the day. I guess my advantage is working nights at a hospital, I don't have access to the cafeteria, so what I bring from home is what I get, as long as I don't carry cash!  And they are a smoke free facility so I would have to walk  quite a way to sneak in a cigarette!  There is no way I would do that....I am too chicken..you never know whats in the dark! 
Honestly, thinking about it, I can't really remember what I ate.  I do remember having grilled chicken breast with some fresh cauliflower, broccoli and celery at work.  I did have coffee from dunkin donuts, so there was so xtra fat from the creamer!  I have managed to switch to Fat Free Creamer at home, but didn't bring any with me to work!  I had a cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch when I got home from work....then slept for 5 hours before the kids got home from school.  I made homemade soup for dinner, had a bowl of it but didn't finish.  I think the medicine I am taking for smoking cessation is making me not want to eat too!  Today, I got up, got the girls off to school, and had to bring the baby to the doctors (8am!).  He is still sick, since before Christmas!  By the time I left the doctors, and got to the pharmacy, I was starving!  I stopped and got a coffee and a breakfast sandwich!!!  I know, not the right choice, and that is where my weakness is....eating out anywhere!  I did, however, use my head a little and only allowed myself to eat half of the breakfast sandwich with my coffee.  This was technically my lunch because we never got home until after 12!!!!  For dinner, I made taco salad for myself while everyone else had soft tacos for dinner.  I have only drank about 20 oz. of water though!  I should never have a day off, I always get off track!  Back to work tomorrow, time to get myself back in order!  I weigh on the 17th!  I started at 228 on the 3rd, was 220.5 on the 10th, and I will be ecstatic to see a one pound weight loss on the 17th since I am not smoking .....Wish me luck!   This is day #3 smoke free!!!

For starters,  our names are Mary, age 32, and Tonya, age 33.  We live in Peru, NY.  Our weight loss goals are Mary, 63 lbs to lose and Tonya, 60.  We are interested in the Million Pound Match Up because we have watched the Biggest Loser, season after season, and their stories and experiences are so inspiring to us.  We know we can challenge ourselves the way they did, and succeed as they did.  Our lives have not been great, horrible marriages, ending in Domestic Violence.  We have wonderful children that deserve Moms who can run, jump and play with them, rather than sit on the sidelines, because we can't move and breath to join them.  Most of all, we deserve to live a long time to enjoy watching our children grow up, and regaining some self esteem that was taken from us.  We hate looking in the mirror at our images, but know we are the only ones who can change that.  Our plan is to learn to eat lower fat, lower calorie foods, and learn proper portion control.  We want to join a gym, and have purchased the Biggest Loser workouts to do at home, when we can't get to the gym.  We both are smokers, who have quit dates for 1/12/08.  We plan on being there for each other on the days we want so badly to give into food temptation (I am sure there will be a lot of them) and also to drag each other to exercises whether we want to or not.  We started this a week ago, nothing huge, just a lot modifications to our eating.  We didn't want to shock ourselves right back to eating poorly, but this week we are implementing exercise into our program, and next week we will be smoke free!!!!  Wish us luck!  Mary and Tonya